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My Life as a Transsexual....
Being labeled and pushed away from young was an unpleasant ride for me! People didn't understand how it felt like to be me. From the outside I'm a BOY, but inside, I feel so much like a GIRL. Let me share with you my struggle to be accepted in my own circle of friends and family.
I 'm Nisha (name changed to protect identity). Ever since I was young, I never fancied boy clothes, boy-talk, boy-toys and the whole boy-life! Being an Indian myself, I've been mocked at and laughed at, for the way I spoke and walked. Even during my younger days, my father would refuse to call me his own, whilst my mother would secretly give in to my fetish needs. She would bring me for facials and we would go shopping. We were like
best "girlfriends", only I looked like a boy from the outside. She made me feel comfortable under my own skin.
But all this didn't last long. My father began to verbally abuse me and physically abuse my mother because I was becoming "THIS". But little did he knew, that I chose to be THIS. I still remember all those lonely nights, when I was left home all alone, while my father brought my older brother and mother for dinners and movies. He
assumed that by punishing me,
I would change. But he was so wrong!
All this made me a lonelier person. I started hating myself and my behavior. I fell into depression. My dad brought me to see a doctor like as if I was suffering from some medical illness. But to my mishap, it was true. I was suffering from a major hormonal imbalance; something that brought fear and unhappiness to him. He refused to believe it. I couldn't help it. I was 15 when I found out that I indeed had a problem. It didn't affect me much, because I liked it. I felt different.
Did you know....-: Transsexualism is a condition in which a person identifies as the gender opposite to the sex assigned to them at birth. Transsexualism is considered a taboo subject in many parts of the world. Negative beliefs about transsexualism may stem from religious beliefs or cultural norms. Many psychological causes for transsexualism have been proposed, while research has been presented to suggest that the cause of transsexualism has its roots in biology.
The current diagnosis for transsexual people who present themselves for psychological treatment is "gender identity disorder". Most transsexuals assert that because mental gender cannot be changed via psychiatric means, the only alternative left is to change the physical body to match the mind. If untreated, it can lead to mental and emotional problems, and sometimes suicide.
When I turned 18, I started looking at guys. I wondered what it felt like to dress like a woman. I shaved my legs. I tried styling my hair like the 80's mod women. I totally couldn't condone my facial hair, so I would try mum's hair removal creams, waxes and stuff. I played around with all her beauty products. She was the kind of person who kept up with fashion and colours. Innocent times, I suppose and I just enjoyed it. I couldn't cheat my emotions and run away from them.
I started socializing with more people, that's when I met others with similar identities. I had lots of fun with them. Still the mocking from OTHERS-straight people didn't change. "You can't make everyone happy"- that's a statement which I believed very deeply. I believe it's true. It all started from my dad, slowly my relatives then on to my friends. I walked out of that circle because it only made me an unhappy person. People who don't love you for whom you are aren't really friends. Time healed the wound. I went for the operation and here I am now, all New and improved, yet the same old person inside. I wanted this life; I chose my identity. It's something I will never look back at and regret. I've learned to rock my new life with attitude. Nobody knows the truth unless I open up and speak about my past. I'm meeting new people now; I'm working; I'm in love and I'm being accepted. That's all I ever wanted!
You've probably passed Trans people on the street without realizing it. Trans people, just like anyone else, prefer to be treated as PEOPLE first. They are brains, hearts and souls who happen to have certain genitalia attached, not the other way around. Let's Stop having, "typical Indian mentality"- that's a disorder, which can be treated!
